This is my free write blog so I’ll just speak my mind here.
Today I had a troublesome conversation with Maddy. She’s very dear to me and I’ve been doing things for her since she was little. We were very close. But now she’s all grown up, with a mind of her own and what I say really doesn’t make an impact the way it used to.
Since I’m a mom this troubles me. Will I feel upset when my kids grow up and move out and speak their own mind? I have to respect those changes but inside I can feel a squeeze of hurt. Maddy thinks I’ve changed but I really haven’t.
Maybe I can’t accept the fact that she has her own friends and possibilities that I will never have. I used to hold her hand and play ‘imagine’ games with her.
I was in control the way I am with my boys now. But that will never last and the hurt will come back again.
Sorry Maddy… I guess I’ll let go then.
